The last time

OK, posting part of another another diary entry here because when I read that, I saw such another clear Anne with an E  parallel! I wrote this entry on June 6th, 1988, which was three days after my graduation. Here goes:

“Soon after the graduation ceremony was over we had to go home because papa, mama, my brother and I were leaving for Germany early next morning. So, after I got some people to sign my yearbook (not all have done that yet) I had to leave. I was quickly hugging some people goodbye. The last one I hugged was [my friend] Im, and suddenly out of the blue tears were rolling down my cheeks, so I just ran out and down the steps and into the car.”

FYI, my school was an old castle so picture me running down these stairs at the front of the castle (this is how it looked in the 1980s):

“I was wearing a ¾ length skirt. While running down the stairs it was flapping behind me, I think I hit Jer who was standing on the stairs with his sister. The last sight I had of him was the two of them standing there. In a way I was also sad that now I’ll never see Jer again. After all he was my big love. Just after graduation I had bumped into him by accident. We both stood there and congratulated each other. Hadn’t I been in a hurry I would have kissed him on the cheek. In a way it wouldn’t have felt that embarrassing. But I only thought of that much later when I was in bed and it suddenly clicked that he and I had congratulated each other.”

I mostly remember quite clearly the last glimpse I had of Jer and his sister as we drove away. I remember thinking I had to imprint that on my brain as the last time I’d ever see him. Now that I read this diary entry I do recall a flash of the bumping into each other moment, saying something quickly and then getting out of each other’s way as quickly as possible. Thinking of that moment reminds me of this moment in Anne with an E:


Oh my goodness, the teen angst of it all! The only difference here is that Anne and Gilbert really are made for each other. 🙂

7 thoughts on “The last time

  1. Esther these diary posts are like sweet movie scripts just make me smile and take me back to high school and innocence!
    I’m glad you got your Jer moment in the end
    Maybe that was all you needed w him.
    You’ve really sold me on this show! Thank you!!😘❤️

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    1. Seasons 1 and 2 are good and this season 3 is exceptional. Next episode is in an hour and I’m staying up to watch it. 🙂 If you want to watch this, it’s on Netflix and season 3 will be on there as well from Jan 3rd 2020.

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    1. It really was! I had some difficulty adjusting to boarding school life for the first 3 months but after that first Christmas I had a blast. And it really was so beautiful there. I used to walk up to the castle in the mornings for breakfast (dining hall was in the cellar) and when I rounded a corner from a tree-filled lane and I caught the first morning glimpse of that castle (in sunshine, fog, snow and anything inbetween) I often felt like I needed to pinch myself for being able to go to school in such beautiful surroundings.


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